It's day 4 without Jax and I just woke up. I'm going to go early to the gym before I teach my Aqua class and run on the treadmill. Abigail slept in the bed last night.
Everything still feels so wrong.
He should be here. It wasn't his time. It's just so unfair.
How an he really be gone? He was JUST here and he was fine! Wasn't he? Wasn't he just here? Was he really ever here or did I just imagine him? I see his pictures and I know he was here. I see his food bowl (still full) and I know he was here.
My buddy. My buddy. I miss you.
:( Sending tonnes of love and hugs xx
ReplyDeleteHug Abigail, Mara and Corky and think about how Jax had a good life with You.
ReplyDeleteIt would have been worse, had he had a long hard illness... well you would have been more prepared maybe but for him it would have been worse.
He had a beautiful life with you.