I've been having body image struggles lately. No surprise there! Don't I always??
I just feel..... I don't know.... squishy. My clothes still fit fine so I'm sure it's all in my head. I feel like I've been slacking off so badly and I need to run more or do more weights or whatever. Because of my diastasis recti (separation of my abdominal muscles from childbirth) I can't do sit ups or crunches or anything like that. So I feel as though my abs are all flabby.
Zumba was hard this morning. For one thing, I was really tired so my energy was lacking. My eyes wouldn't even stay open all the way. For another thing, I hated the sigh of myself in the mirror. Even wearing all black I thought I looked fat. For a third thing, the energy of the class was low too, so it was a struggle to keep my smile on and keep things as bouncy as they usually are.
Anyway. Mara is napping right now. I'm waiting for a call from the Activities Director from my gym to talk to me about a class opening up (or something like that). She's assured me via text that I'm not in trouble lol. Good thing too, because I'd have worried about it.
I taught Zumba this morning, like I mentioned, ran 3.1 miles when I got home, and I'll teach another Zumba class tonight in addition to picking up the little boy I now babysit 3 evenings per week. Busy busy. That's good, it'll keep my mind off tough things.
In other news, it's raining. Joy! Lol.
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