Thursday, July 21, 2016
Tuesday, July 19, 2016
House Is CLEAN
The house is clean (or at least the main floor and most of the upstairs, except Mara's room) and I really should be studying but Mara has been asleep for 2 hours and I need to get her up soon, so I see no point in studying right now.
I feel really drained right now. Corky and I had an argument last night. Nothing major, just an argument like couples have, but it was draining and I've felt so beaten down all day. I didn't sleep well either, which doesn't help matters any.
I've always had a hot temper. Always. Ever since I was a little tiny kid. It was kind of funny because as a young child (toddler all the way through elementary school years) I was so different inside than outside. If you had looked at me, you'd have seen this petite little blonde-haired kid with big blue eyes. I was very somber looking as a young child. I was sparing with my smiles. I was not overly social and preferred to hang out close to my parents. I was very active but not a fan of crowds. I didn't like "people", I liked "person." But as soon as someone got me angry about something.... oh man. I had a fiery temper, hotter than any of my friends. Maybe it's the Leo in me but once I get fired up about something, I'm a goner. My fuse is short and it doesn't regenerate fast.
Over the years I've gotten a lot better. My fuse has lengthened (although when it was so short to begin with I guess that's not really saying much). My temper isn't as hot. But it's still there. And there's only so much I can do with it. Sometimes I feel like a failure, especially as a mother, when I can't tame it as well as some people think I should. I do the best I can most of the time. I'm sure I could do better but sometimes there isn't much I can do except hang on for the ride.
Something to think about, for sure.
I feel really drained right now. Corky and I had an argument last night. Nothing major, just an argument like couples have, but it was draining and I've felt so beaten down all day. I didn't sleep well either, which doesn't help matters any.
I've always had a hot temper. Always. Ever since I was a little tiny kid. It was kind of funny because as a young child (toddler all the way through elementary school years) I was so different inside than outside. If you had looked at me, you'd have seen this petite little blonde-haired kid with big blue eyes. I was very somber looking as a young child. I was sparing with my smiles. I was not overly social and preferred to hang out close to my parents. I was very active but not a fan of crowds. I didn't like "people", I liked "person." But as soon as someone got me angry about something.... oh man. I had a fiery temper, hotter than any of my friends. Maybe it's the Leo in me but once I get fired up about something, I'm a goner. My fuse is short and it doesn't regenerate fast.
Age 2
eating a cupcake, 3 years old
3 years old, petting a cockatoo in Hawaii
Age 5, end of Kindergarten
6th birthday, July 1993
1st grade, Halloween, age 6
Over the years I've gotten a lot better. My fuse has lengthened (although when it was so short to begin with I guess that's not really saying much). My temper isn't as hot. But it's still there. And there's only so much I can do with it. Sometimes I feel like a failure, especially as a mother, when I can't tame it as well as some people think I should. I do the best I can most of the time. I'm sure I could do better but sometimes there isn't much I can do except hang on for the ride.
Something to think about, for sure.
Thursday, July 14, 2016
YouTube Video About the Last Half Marathon
I made another YouTube video. I had been trying for days to make a blog post about the half marathon on 7/4/16 but I just couldn't get it to happen. So I made a video instead, explaining why that was very likely my last half marathon.
Click HERE to watch the video.
Click HERE to watch the video.
Monday, July 11, 2016
I'm NOT Pregnant!
I swear I'm not pregnant. I just eat weird food!
Right now for lunch I'm eating:
Leftover spaghetti squash
Tomato sauce
Black beans
and
Avocado
All mixed together.
And it's delicious!!! Lol
Happy MONDAY! :)
Right now for lunch I'm eating:
Leftover spaghetti squash
Tomato sauce
Black beans
and
Avocado
All mixed together.
And it's delicious!!! Lol
Happy MONDAY! :)
Sunday, July 3, 2016
2 New YouTube Videos
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