Just To Write

Once again, I'm going to use my blog to sort out the jumble of shit in my head.  I've done this a few times on here - a brain dump of sorts.  I do picture dumps so why not brain dumps! The anonymity of the internet is a great screen to hide behind.

Today was rough.  Well, no.  The day was mostly fine but the evening was rough.  Orion was wiggly, fussy and kept spitting up all over the place.  I eventually gave in and just put him in the bathtub because he smelled like sour milk.  Tangent #1 - I was telling someone recently how kids have a way of breaking down all our best laid plans.  Mara didn't do as much of that as her brother does.  She was a fairly easy baby actually.  But with Orion...

"I won't ever bed-share with my baby."  Orion -1, Mommy - 0.
"I won't ever put my baby to sleep on his/her belly."  Orion - 2, Mommy - 0.
"I won't ever put my baby to bed with a blanket."  Orion - 3, Mommy - 0.
"I won't have a baby that refuses a bottle." Orion - 4, Mommy - 0.
"I won't ever be without a monitor that senses breathing." Orion - 5, Mommy - 0.
"I won't ever give my baby solids before 6 months." Orion - 6, Mommy - 0.
Game, set, match.

It's a lot of battle-picking and with-the-flow-going.  Currently I'm sitting here, looking at him on the video monitor, asleep on his double mattress on the floor (not crib), on his belly with a blanket over his legs and no breathing monitor.  Sigh.

Anyway, back to today.  Orion was wiggly, tired, fussy and spit-uppy.  Mara just would NOT leave me alone for five seconds.  She has been so volatile lately; flying off the handle for every little thing that doesn't go her way exactly when she wants it.  Tangent #2 - I have some trepidation about this summer because I have her in school 3 days per week instead of 4.  The original reason for this was because I wanted her to be in a swim class on Tuesdays and Thursdays in the morning.  However, that didn't work out as planned so now she has swim class in the evening on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  The other reason is that tuition is higher during the summer months (June, July and August) so we'll save some money.

ANYWAY, long story short, Mara ended up in timeout for something or other.. I can't even really remember what it was.  Oh, she was trying to hit me in the face with a gallon ziplock bag that had a bottle of baby shampoo and a bottle of hair detangler.  But she was refusing to sit in timeout, so by the end of it I had her in a full body hold, with her clawing, kicking, flailing and trying to head-butt me with all her might.  She is so strong and so big that when she braced her feet on the wall and pushed backward, she actually moved us both clear across the hallway on the hardwood floor.  She kept screaming at me, "you're MEAN mommy and I DON'T LOVE YOU!"  Ouch.

Ugh... I have a bunch of stuff I need to do.  I need to start on my CEUs (continued education units, I think) for my personal trainer recertification.  The trouble is they're ridiculously expensive.  But it's still better than doing the whole damn thing over again.  We also need to book our tickets for our Canada trip in July.  And get the guest bedroom ready for company in June... and again in August.  And I have 2 baskets of laundry waiting to be sorted, folded and put away.  And the dishwasher needs unloading.  Why can't I live in a Smart House that does all this shit for me?  I need a personal assistant. LOL!