Wednesday, June 5, 2013

2nd Picture Dump (from today)

A few more from today:

kisses!!

help! Bulldog running away with my camera!!!

Abby

bulldog sibling love <3

Bachelorette Party Picture Dump

Pictures from my Bachelorette Party weekend
May 31-June 1, 2013 :)
They're all out of order, sorry! 

my friend writing marriage advice while my mom looks on

my friend Pinning the Peacock on the Hunk

posing with gifts <3

more marriage advice for me!

everybody's decorating peacocks

my bestie's and my matching phone cases

the walkway (OMG BALLOONS! RUN!!!)

Advice book

Besties together again! xo

my sash

my bestie, my mom and me at Zumba on 5.31.13

some gifts

LOL

the door decoration

prize box

I think I look huge in this pic but oh well

Peacock iPhones!

my bestie before her first zumba class ever

just another day at work! lol

my soon to be Mother In Law (love her!)

Main table

The whole party!

at sushi


opening presents

I love her!!!!

I wanna see your Peacock!

Bridal scratch-it game

my friend and me decorating our peacocks

3 besties at sushi

pretty!

Bridal pictionary (I was drawing "Laughter")

More Pin the Peacock

my mom pinning the peacock LOL

awesome gift :D

Friends!



I improved the "hunk" by giving him a mustache and eyepatch and tattoo haha

My bestie and Jaxxie 5.31.13

Giant cupcake

Giant cupcake and baby neon cupcakes w/ peacock feathers

cute!

My friend and Jax 

LOL huge yawn Jaxxie

My parrot helps me celebrate

Bride to be and Maid of Honor

Monday, June 3, 2013

Perfect Timing

Just when I needed some motivation, look what came jumping out at me from an old journal of mine:


Sunday, June 2, 2013

I Flew!!!

I didn't do much... but I logged my very first flying hours today in a little Cessna 172!  My dad came along for the (bumpy) ride!  A 15 knot headwind on landing caused my stomach to do some very odd gymnastics, but other than that it was an AWESOME experience!  

Behold... some pictures!

me and N62407

my instructor and me after the flight!

my little pilot logbook, no longer empty :)

Get It Out

This is the message I just sent to my friend on Facebook:

"I am dying. I swear to god. I'm probably not actually dying but I wish I was. Today was so great... I love everybody! I just hate myself. I never want to eat again. This hurts so much. I am so tired of it."

Today (well, yesterday, since it's 1:40am!) was my bachelorette party. It was AMAZING. PERFECT. I loved it. My bestie, G, came down from Edmonton to hostess it. I love her, she is honestly the most amazing bestie a girl could wish for. She threw me the most awesome Peacock Theme party. Low-key, fun games, no penises (lol)... it was perfect. All my bridesmaids except my cousin (who lives in Connecticut) came, as well as my fiancé's mom, my mom and one of my Zumba besties.  

It was seriously so much fun. The time literally flew by. We played "How Well Do You Know the Bride?" where I had to fill out this survey and everyone had to guess the answers. We played "How Well Does the Bride Know Her Groom?" where I had to answer questions about Corky. We played "Pin the Peacock on the Hunk" (a variation of pin the tail on the donkey. You can imagine how that went.) We played this game that involved panties (I won't have to go shopping again for ages) and Bridal Pictionary. Then we all went for sushi. It was great.

Friday morning I picked up G at the airport. We went to the mall to get me a LBD (little black dress, fyi) and some peacock accessories. I didn't actually end up wearing the dress because I looked like a giant piece of lard with a LBD on. Very sad. Anyway. Then we went to the grocery store for cake mix and other supplies. We baked a giant cupcake (pics to follow once they're uploaded.) Then we just hung around my condo until it was time to go to Zumba.

G's first ever Zumba class was A BLAST!!!!! I had eleven people which is the most I've ever had on a Friday night. The energy was great. Three ladies came from another gym, where I substitute teach every once in a while, just for the occasion. My mom even came! I had these 2 new songs that I had never actually done before, I had just done them in my head. I lead them both and it worked out! I was amazed, to be honest with you. LOL!!! Today I told my friend/first Zumba teacher about that and she was cracking up.

Tonight after the party we went over to Corky's mom's house because it's Corky's brother's birthday (did ya get all that straight? haha!) We hung around there for about 30 minutes. My dogs are over there because tomorrow is Corky's Bach party and I have stuff to do (more on that in a minute.) I introduced G to Corky's brother, R, and his new "friend" (aka girlfriend) M. Also Corky's step-dad, S, was there. They were going to walk over to The Underground, a nearby bar, and shoot pool so G and I left and came home. We transferred some stuff onto a flash drive, recorded the Zumba routine I made for her, took some pictures, and she went to bed.

Well, I'm a night owl and so of course I stayed up. I was texting Corky for over an hour and he never responded. I absolutely HATE when he does that. I always worry a ton. Well, as it turns out, this time there was good reason to worry! Some kind of accident happened at the bar where a drunk lady tripped over R (who was just standing there!), hit her head and required medical assistance. Apparently all the friends of the lady surrounded R and were yelling at him. Unbeknownst to Corky, someone had called the police. Corky took R and M out of there and they all started walking home. Then a friend of their's drove by and told them that the cops were at The Underground looking for them. Corky sent R and M home and went back to talk to the cops. He got it all straightened out and went back to his mom's house. Definitely not the kind of event I want for us in our life together. Ridiculous that this would happen on the eve of his Bach party and the night of my party... the night we are supposed to be celebrating the fact that we are going to HAVE a life together! Just craziness.

As far as food goes, there was almost nothing that wasn't scary. Cake. Cupcakes. Cookies. Popcorn. Omg. Kill me now. I ate cake okay? And popcorn. It was my bachelorette party! Knock on wood, I'll only have one in my life!

But... now I hate myself. I never want to eat again. My heart is breaking. I just want to lose weight. It's not even fair! That's why I sent that message to my friend. I just want to stop existing right now. It's the middle of the night and I'm wide awake.

God... my freakin' neighbors are so irritating. It's 1:50am and someone just yelled "YEEAAHHHH" outside. Last night at EXACTLY this time there was a lady yelling "HELP!" outside. I guess her boyfriend wouldn't let her into their apartment or some shit. I don't even know. It was stupid. This neighborhood was sooooo quiet until this one particular couple moved into one of the flats right across the way. Things got remarkably louder right after that. The guy has a really annoying voice too. :( And their dog yips a lot.

Anyway, tomorrow I have my very first flying lesson. To be honest with you, I am not as excited as I feel like I should be. First of all, I'm not really into teeny planes, but I know that's where you have to start. But... I think I'm actually scared too. I know it will be okay but it's kind of scary. I love airplanes but I definitely am acutely aware that humans were NOT meant to fly.  To roughly quote a movie: "...if humans were meant to fly, God would have given us wings."

It's kind of like SCUBA diving. Breathing underwater is one of the strangest experiences I've ever had. Never in my life have I been so aware that I was doing something intensely unnatural. Ever since I was little the thing to do when completely submerged in water is hold your breath! Not breathe deeply and evenly! It's the most bizarre feeling! Really fun, but very odd for sure. It's like snorkeling x1000.

In unrelated news, my shins are fucking killing me. I'm laying perfectly still. Nothing is moving but my fingers, typing. And my right shin is just radiating pain. Ugh.

In more unrelated news, I am considering going back to Paleo. One of my friends who came over for the party has lost a BUNCH of weight on Paleo. I don't know how many pounds but I'd guess maybe 15 or 20? Big change. I can't remember the last time I saw her... maybe like a month and a half ago? Must be something more than just Paleo. Anyway... it triggered me a little but mostly intrigued me. I'll think about it.

Okay... I should go to sleep soon since I have to be up at 7:25am. Also, I'm starting to not make sense. Please cross your fingers for me. I need all the help I can get.

XO!!! <3

Friday, May 24, 2013

Cocoa, coffee and diet coke

Good Morning!
And happy Friday.
Or so they tell me.

Cocoa, coffee and diet coke are the last 3 things I've put in my mouth.  The cocoa is, of course, fat free (20 cal!)  Besides those things, I've had 1 apple and 1 greek yogurt (together about 130 cal)  And I've already taught 1 Zumba class, and have one more to go.  It's one of those days.

I am working on a cool thing for you guys.  I am going to put together a biggish compilation of ghost experiences.  Mine, and others.  If anyone reading this has any ghost experiences they'd like to see up on this blog, send it to me!  All comments have to be approved to show up here (I think!), so if you want to remain anonymous, just say so in the comment and I'll "deny" it after I copy down your story.  That way I'll have the info but your name won't be connected to it on here for all to see.

On this blog I have shared with you a few ghost encounters.  There are more to come.  

Also, I wrote this the other week.  It sounded like something out of Seventeen Magazine but I like it all the same. LOL.

Top 10 Reasons Why Zumba Is Good For You - NOT Related to Calories/Weigh! (written by me!)

1) It's fun! Zumba is a workout in disguise. By the time the hour has passed, you're stunned to find you're tired. That was a workout? What??

2) It builds confidence. There's no feeling in the world quite like mastering a particularly tricky Zumba step. That bubbly feeling rises up and explodes on your face in a smile. Just wait until you know the choreography better than the instructor does. You'll feel like a million bucks!

3) It improves your dance moves. Take Zumba to the clubs? Heck yes! Once you have begun to master the art of booty-shaking, there's no stopping you! Also you learn to pay close attention to rhythm - a very helpful thing in the nightclubs or dancing with your sweetheart.

4) You meet people. I've met some of my very best friends because of Zumba! If your instructor does something kooky, you can turn to the person next to you and have a good guffaw at yourselves trying to do the same. It's a good link.

5) You'll hear good music. Need some new tunes to jam out to? Zumba music is surprisingly catchy! Use SoundHound to name that song or just ask your instructor if one catches your ear. The beat and bass are great to blast while you zoom down the highway! Maybe you'll find a whole new kind of music you love!

6) It releases endorphins. Endorphins make you feel good. Enough said!

7) It's good for your heart. Zumba is great cardiovascular exercise. We all know that cardio helps keep your heart healthy. Also, Zumba can be done year round, so you don't have to worry about building up stamina to frolic in the summer sun - you'll already have it!


8)You can wear bright colors! You know that crazy shade of green that you love but would never wear out? Or that bright turquoise sports tank you love but are too shy to wear to the gym? Well unearth those garments, it's time to shine bright! ZumbaWear comes in all colors and shades. Don't be shy, stand out!

9) You'll learn about culture. A lot of the steps in Zumba are from traditional dances from cultures around the world. In doing research or talking with your instructor, you can find out a lot about a culture through their styles of dance. Some are pretty self-explanatory (machete, anyone?)

10) Dance for great causes! Zumba Fitness teams up with many different organizations to make a difference. The Great Calorie Drive lets you actually donate calories to help stop hunger. How awesome is that?? Together We Dance (to cure ALS) raises money to help find a cure for Lou Gehrig's disease. Be a part of something big! Help yourself and others, all while having a blast.

See you on the dance floor. XO 


Happy Memorial Day!!!
be safe. have fun. don't get too drunk.
xoxoxoxo

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Miscellaneous

Hello world.

I'm still here.

I feel like I should blog tonight but.... what am I going to say?  My brain feels like a big piece of mush.  Honestly I just can't come up with something to write about.  Where's my energy?  Gone!  

I got blood drawn today.  We'll see how that looks.  Probably it'll be fine.  I just feel like crap for no good reason.  Isn't that how it always works?  You feel horrible, go to the doctor and they're like "you're fine!"  

Tomorrow I have some appointments.  Nutritionist in the morning.  What is the point?  What a waste of time.  Then I get to see my FAVORITE THERAPIST!!!! She's a PMHNP.  I've been seeing her since 2007.  I get to bring my puppy, Jax, to that appointment.  Oh my gosh she's going to just adore him!  So I guess that's good.  I'm pretty excited about that.

My puppy.... oh my.  He is a cute little f*ck!  Annoying at times, sure, but he's a puppy!  Chews on everything, pees in the house sometimes (sometimes out, like he's supposed to) and does the cutest stuff ever!  He wrestles with Abby, gives kisses, barks and growls at random stuff, hops around, chases toys... omg.  He's adorable and I love him so much.  Currently, he's asleep next to Corky on the couch.  Abby's there too.  They're watching Big Brain Theory.  My IQ is actually higher than most of the people on that show.  Interesting.

Bridesmaids dresses are ordered.  Bridesmaids gifts are purchased.  Wedding gown selected.  So that's good.

My bestie comes a week from tomorrow and my bachelorette party is a week from Saturday.  It's going to be an awesome weekend.  Many pictures to come, I'm sure!  My bestie, G, lives in Canada so I almost never get to see her in person.  We've been friends since 2005!  

This evening I rushed to the aid of my other bestie.  She was having a bad day and needed some support.  Yeah, it was tough to rush out of therapy and drive in horrendous traffic all the way out to the gym to help lift her up during her Zumba class, but isn't that what friends do for each other?  She's my bestie.  I love her.  And I know that if I say "help me," she'll be there in a second.

Corky is talking about Jax's hairy wiener.  LOL.  Bye.