The Dream

I had a nightmare last night.  First one in a while!  It was one of those weird dreams where it scared the shit out of me for no good reason because the stuff that was happening in the dream wasn't really that scary.  I just felt disproportionately scared.  Once, when I was little, I had a dream that there was a mouse in my shoe and I was terrified.  If that happened in reality I would probably have been startled.  But for some reason I was very frightened by that mouse.

Anyway, the nightmare I had last night had nothing to do with mice.  It had to do with Zumba!

I was supposed to teach this humongous class at some kind of big Zumba event, like the convention or something.  There was this incredibly tall, two-tiered stage.  I mean really tall, like 50 feet high!  (I know that makes no sense because then nobody could see me, but dreams seldom make much sense!)  There was a platform upstage where a DJ was, and for some reason the whole thing was carpeted.  Down below were like 100 people, getting ready to do Zumba, and I had to teach them from way up there.  

I can remember I was crouching at the side of the stage, in the curtains, rummaging through my bag, getting ready to do the warm up.  All of a sudden, someone turned on a fog machine and it went rogue.  Fog filled the whole room.  Although no one could see me anymore (nor I them), I still had to teach!  I couldn't even see where the edge of the stage was!  The music started and I was clinging to the edge of the DJ's tier, trying to do the moves to the warm up but too terrified of falling off the edge of the stage to let go.

The fear was real.  I can still feel it now.

I realized after a few moments that I wasn't going to be able to teach, and yet I had to.  Then the fog dissipated but I was still too petrified to let go of the DJ's tier.  At just that moment, the baby monitor (in real life) ran out of batteries and started beeping and woke me up.  It was 5:16am.

It was weird because I'm not afraid of heights.  But something about that stage scared me to death!  I was glad to wake up when I did.  

have a fantastic week! xoxo :)