The problem is that it just takes so much energy to actually try to put my thoughts and feelings into words sometimes. What's the point, really? Does anyone really actually care what I'm thinking or feeling? Probably not. But this blog acts as a journal, of sorts, and I guess just writing for the sake of saying SOMETHING is reason enough.
I feel....... really overwhelmed at times. Like I'm drowning. Like I can't stay afloat. There are just so many THINGS.... trying to housebreak Frank (which is not going well at all), trying to parent my spirited child, trying to keep house, trying to teach all my classes plus the ones they ask me to substitute (not all of which I accept), trying to study for my personal trainer certification while training for half marathons, a triathlon and a marathon, all while trying to find 5 minutes to take a shower and shave my damn legs! I ran that relay the other weekend with my leg hair blowing in the mountain breeze because I hadn't had a shower longer than hop-in-wash-everything-hop-out in a week! It's crazy.
I know that many of those things are things that I brought upon myself. But I'm almost 29... how much longer am I going to even be ABLE to do these things? I don't mean to say I'm old or that my body is quitting. It's not... but we are never promised tomorrow and I want to do these things. Now is the time.
This is just the phase of life I'm in, I suppose.
Here's some pictures from the last few weeks, not in any order.
Selfie while studying at 11pm
CARROT!
Dinner (chicken, mashed cauliflower/potatoes, carrots & hummus)
Frankie LongLegs
Frank tearing stuff up on the back deck
He guards my dreams
Park vibes - Mara Soleil
My sister and me
Shorts & race shirt kinda weather
Thank you snapchat for hours of entertainment for
my toddler and myself!
My pretty girl
Maybe the goal should be being happy? Not accomplishing things. Like a life goal or so.
ReplyDeleteI think that if one is too busy, on can't be happy. How can you be happy if you feel you are drowning?
You are probably competing with yourself. No one else would think "oh she has done nothing with her life" or something. Other people just think about their lives. . .
What would make you long-term happy?
Oh and..
ReplyDeletemy YouTube sugests videos to wach. Sometimes your old videos.
You were never ever ugly. But you are so much more beautiful now.. maybe it's just different cameras or something. But more like life visdom and experienses, I belive.
:)
"With my leg hair blowing in the mountain breeze" Hahahaha dead! 😂😂😂 Story of my life too!
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