For four days.
I'm headed to LA tomorrow for the Zumba conference. I am sooooooo excited. And nervous. My friend, who also has eating issues is going to be there too, and we plan to spend lots of time together (read: food time.) We put together a shopping list for me to buy before I leave, and pack. Here is a picture of the list. Anorexics for sure!!
I know, I know, it's 3 full days of Zumba. I'll burn a zillion calories (I hope.) Maybe I'll come home even thinner! Ooh what a tantalizing thought. Anyway, in preparation, today has been a "cheat day" and I haven't exercised at all except for my little ab workout I do every morning. My body is so freakin' tired, honestly. My bones ache. My muscles ache. I have 3 straight days of Zumba coming up, I can't afford to hurt anymore. My eating disorder is freaking out over that but she can just shut the f*ck up right now because I care way too much about Zumba. At least for today. So there.
I have to bring my NYE dress for a formal party, which I'm nervous about. What if it doesn't fit me anymore?? Corky told me last night I am smaller now than I was on NYE, but.... I can't figure out how to make myself believe him!
This is a picture of my breakfast today. Coffee, 2 rice cakes with 2 tbsp reduced-sugar jelly, 2 phenylalanine pills and 1 N-Acetyl-L-Cysteine pill. Yum, right??
My bestie G sent me a package from Canada. She recently went to Hawaii and got me a lot of cool stuff. I am currently drinking (fat free) cocoa out of the mug! I am also currently wearing the bracelet she got me. I LOVE MY BESTIE!!!!!
Here's a pic of me from Superbowl Sunday (February 2, 2013) I was sooooo convinced I was giant this day. In fact, I still think I look a little fat. Oh well, what can ya do!
This picture.... I died laughing.
Psychologist Bug: "and how does that make you feel?"
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